CD 3 and so much anticipation!

Here we are day 3 of my cycle and everything is going great so far.  It seems like it's SO much better than they use to be.  I know I keep saying that, but it's true.  I have, however, been extremely tired. I could sleep ALL day if I was allowed to. lol. But, I have to work today. Well more like volunteer because I'm still not getting paid yet. I'm not going to attend Taekwondo today either.  I mean it will be our first time attending the black belt club class (we finally got invited into it), but I'm just so dang tired. 

SO, 2 more days, I believe, and I get to use my first test stick for my fertility monitor!! YAY! I'm so excited. My husband is too, just as much as I am.  He looks at me different now.  With more excitement in his eyes and happiness.  I mean, I don't know if I was just depressed, but when I wasn't starting and as soon as we found out I couldn't have children (before the surgery), I felt SO unattractive. I felt like a failure as a woman, less than a woman.  I started asking him if he still loved me and if he was still attracted to me.  I got REAL insecure.  I know he would NEVER cheat on me, but at that time, part of me felt like I wouldn't blame him if he left me and found a fertile woman who could bare him children.  I blame the jacked up hormones too.  Apparently, I was a little crazy and I'm not afraid to admit it.  My poor husband had to deal with my major mood swings, but shortly after I'd always apologize for my actions.  I got really bad just before I started. Whew I'm glad that's over with. I asked my husband if I've been better since I started and with wide eyes he nodded really fast. LOL.

HAHAHA! I showed this to CJ and he laughed pretty hard. 

This is pretty accurate. LOL

I am so blessed to have such an amazing man who willingly stuck by my side through all of this. We are both can't wait to start trying again. We feel VERY optimistic about this cycle.  Now, the only thing I'm wondering is that if the fact he's having to ride his motorcycle again will affect our chances of conceiving.  I'm not saying that his boys are questionable at all.  I'm just curious.  I also just want everything to be 100% ready to go.  We both really want this to happen.  I'm still drinking my FertiliTea to keep all my stuff healthy and welcoming. lol. He's taking a multivitamin and we're both eating really well.  I was bored and ended up researching fertility foods for "happy swimmers" and stuff like that, and I found that the foods that we've already been enjoying was actually on the list. lol. Woohoo!!

I read that eggs, red meats, wild caught fish, and organic produce is great for fertility in men.  Good thing I've been on a deviled egg craze the last few months. LOL. I've also read that hot baths, motorcycles, and whitie tighties are bad for the boy's swimmers.  Well, we're 1 out of 2.  He hasn't riden his bike in 2 years, but since his Jeep died and I need to get to work somehow to help pay for classes, he had to renew his registration and start riding again.  He rides a crotch rocket.  I don't know what kind, just that it's REALLY fast.  Supposedly hot baths reduce the sperm count, the vibrations from a motorcycle damage and reduce count, and whitie tighties do the same.  Who wears whitie tighties anymore anyways? lol.  

Anyways, I'm not really worried about my husband's fertility.  I guess I'm still worried about my own and wondering if it's going to happen this time.  I'm praying that this time I'll get my bfp! No more negatives! AH I'm so nervous! Happy thoughts, ladies! Happy thoughts!!!!

I sure hope so!

Well, we'll see what happens ladies! I'm sure I'll post another entry when I start using the test strips for my monitor. I'll do a product review on the ClearBlue Easy Fertility Monitor as well, after it shows my peak and I, hopefully, skip the next period. Cross your fingers and pray ladies.  I continue to pray for all of you for the best of luck and health.  

Good luck and God Bless,
Ashley